My Heart is a Blob
Psalm 22:14 I’m a bucket kicked over and spilled,every joint in my body has been pulled apart.My heart is a blob of melted wax in my gut.I’m dry as a bone,my tongue black and swollen.They have laid me out for burial in the dirt.Remember that song they used to sing on the show "Hee Haw" years ago? Gloom, despair and agony on me? It's so easy to throw a pity party for one that often times I too can join in the chorus: "if it weren't for bad luck I'd have no luck at all!"
Those feelings are seen vividly in this psalm of David. Combine David's emotional trauma with the Message translation and you have some wild imagery. "I'm a bucket kicked over and spilled." I bet some of you can relate to that! And then he says, "my heart is a blob of melted wax in my gut". Now I know that David did not use these words but they sure do express these deep internal feelings that we must come to grips with and defeat if we are ever going to live in victory.
Later in this chapter David speaks of people coming to their senses and running to God. Running back to God is the surest way to break free of that "kicked bucket", "melted blob of wax in the gut" feeling. David was always able to reboot, refresh and renew his mind. In fact in the very next chapter of the psalms he wrote "the Lord is my shepherd, I shall not want". And that psalm still brings comfort to people today.
Stop running away and start running back to God. Help is on the way!